So Tired

He had an embolism--I don't even know if I'm using that word correctly. There are blood clots in his lungs and he's back on the ventilator in ICU as of about 1:00 last night/this morning.

It feels like we're back to square one. I know we're not, but it feels like it.

I would like to be angry at someone, but I don't know who. I will do my best not to take it out on my family. They're too good for that.